Living in a Binary World

They like to think their gender fluidity flows through the garments and align with the surface. Nuh-uh. Wish it were that simple. Clothes are a shell that has little to do with the insides, and the insides have little to do with the anatomy. Most days, Chris is passing—performing roles back and forth and never still—a dear price they pay for living in a binary world.  #‎RainbowSnippets


Blue Jay

A. Zukowski

Boxing was all Alex had ever known, his entire being now shattered beyond repair. One night and four years in jail changed everything. These days, Alex prefers the shadows and dreams of nightmares. Will he find rainbows and glitters in the run-down flat he’s moving into?

Chris has been selling their looks and body for too long. It may be time for a life change, but one thing is clear. The fairest of them all will make a lousy lover until they stop acting the smart-mouthed and blasé cynic. Their story begins with an elegant tango up the narrow stairwell…

A match made in London.

Blue Jay is a hopeful and romantic story with genderqueer and bisexual characters.

Excellent book, and I definitely recommend it for people who enjoy queer romance.~ A.M. Leibowitz, author of An Act of Devotion

I have absolutely loved this series…all about redemption, second chances and love. ~ Love Bytes Review

Tags: genderfluid, genderqueer, contemporary romance, LGBTQ, bisexual, prostitution, sex trade, depression

Book links: Beaten Track: https://www.beatentrackpublishing.com/bluejay

Amazon: http://mybook.to/bluejay


Blue Jay release

Announcing my new release, Blue Jay, out today.
Amazon: http://mybook.to/bluejay
#LGBTQ+ #genderqueer #genderfluid #sports #depression #prostitution #sex trade #contemporary romance
Boxing was all Alex had ever known, his entire being now shattered beyond repair. One night and four years in jail changed everything. These days, Alex prefers the shadows and dreams of nightmares. Will he find rainbows and glitters in the run-down flat he’s moving into?
Chris has been selling their looks and body for too long. It may be time for a life change, but one thing is clear. The fairest of them all will make a lousy lover until they stop acting the smart-mouthed and blasé cynic. Their story begins with an elegant tango up the narrow stairwell…
A match made in London.



I haven’t read a lot of self-help writing books. When I was training to be a screenwriter, I read Robert McKee’s Story which is useful. Later, I could see how his ideas are analogous to the Russian Formalists (excuse the science) in terms of story types, character development and the three-act structure. Also around the time of my writing scripts, I met an actor/scriptwriter who recommended Stephen King’s On Writing. I know, I know. Everyone says, ‘You want to be a writer, go read On Writing.’ I have seen plenty of his film adaptations but none of his books. This is, however, useful. It is kind of the writing 101 book.

Lately, I realised very few of these seminal writing crafts books are written by women. There are lots of great blogs and podcasts that have been started by women writers or those with experience in the publishing industry, though, so I’m going to list a few:
https://www.helpingwritersbecomeauthors.com/podcasts/ Helping Writers Become Authors by K.M.Welland
http://blog.janicehardy.com/ Fiction University by Janice Hardy
https://www.well-storied.com/ Well-Storied by Kristen Kieffer
http://wiredforstory.com/free-resources Wired For Story by Lisa Cron

Enjoy writing! #stayhomeWriMo #LGBTQWriMo #QWriter


Copywriter: Jessica Krcmarik

Autism Awareness Week

To celebrate

World Autism Awareness Week 30 March to 2 April

I am revisiting my lesfic novella Courting Light, currently $1.20 https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/884396

Our days were numbered but precious.
Courting Light is the story of Josie, an eighteen-year-old about to leave home to start university in London. She volunteers at a summer camp for disabled children. When Josie is paired with the autistic teenager Lucian, she faces intense experiences that are truly eye-opening. To her surprise, Lucian is not the only one who captures her attention. Over the weeks, Josie develops powerful desires evoked by the camp’s enigmatic young leader with a shaved head and tattoo on her skull.

This book captures the unique essence of your first love. ~ The Lesbian Review

Genre: LGBTQ+, YA contemporary, lesbian lit
Keywords: lesbian, coming-of-age, disability, teens, young adult, friendship, romance


All books on sale, extended to 31 May

All my books are on the Smashwords Authors give back sale until 20 April (from free -$2.00):


Blue Jay

Liam for Hire

The Boy Who Fell to Earth

Courting Light

Seasons of Love (free anthology)


Project X release

I’m really pleased to welcome Cheryl Headford for the forthcoming release of her latest novel Project X! Read an extract below and grab a copy now. ^_^

Project X – eXtasy Books


Morgan Bentley is a bastard. Matthew knows this absolutely—until he doesn’t.

Matthew and his friend Cory are thrilled to attend one of the most prestigious universities in the UK. On their pre-entry visit, they met Morgan Bentley and his stuck-up friends. Matthew takes an instant dislike to the arrogant, conceited, self-obsessed, beautiful, intelligent, and charismatic boy. Throughout the next year, Matthew harbours his dislike, never missing the opportunity to complain to his best friend, Cory, what a bastard Morgan is.

Then, an unexpected turn of events catapults Matthew, Morgan, and Cory into a nightmare, and all the things Cory had said about Matthew’s true feelings about Morgan come crashing down on his head, and he realises that what he thought was hatred and anger was, in fact, growing attraction and begrudging admiration. But when the deadly nature of the elusive Project X is revealed, it seems their budding romance is doomed before it begins, as one of them is unlikely to survive.


Morgan Bentley was a bastard. An utter, complete, A-one, cut-glass bastard. He was arrogant, selfish, cold, standoffish, cruel, and completely heartless. His history was peppered with broken hearts and broken people attesting to the fact. There was no doubt about it—he was a bastard.

Morgan didn’t have any friends. What he had was an entourage: people who cared less for the person he was than for the prestige his company brought. At the moment he had a girlfriend, the undoubted Alpha Female of the university, a bitch called Charlotte Lethbridge, whose father owned half of Mayfair. The relationship wouldn’t last, though. They never did. And next week it could just as easily be a boyfriend.

No one ever said no to Morgan. No one outside his circle of “friends” ever said anything at all unless he invited them to, which he rarely ever did.

Cory often said Morgan was sad—he had to be. He had to be lonely and sad because he had no real friends, no lasting relationships, no one to share with. Not like us. Sometimes I had to stop myself laughing when he said that. Morgan Bentley sad? Not bloody likely. He had everything. I mean everything.

His father was a research chemist, heading a huge multinational corporation. They manufactured drugs and engaged in research projects, sometimes for the government. I think that’s why Cory was so fascinated with Morgan. He was getting a degree in biochemistry and wanted to be a researcher himself. Cory was awesome…but he had flaws, and his fascination with Morgan was one of them. Personally, I wouldn’t care if I never saw his smug face ever again. Hell, I’d have been so much happier if I hadn’t.


For a different perspective on how Morgan felt about that initial meeting you might like to read the Prequel. This gives away spoilers if you haven’t read the book, but is a nice, currently free,  introduction to the boys and how their different perspectives work.

Project X – Prequel



Meet the author:

Cheryl was born into a poor mining family in the South Wales Valleys. Until she was 16, the toilet was at the bottom of the garden and the bath hung on the wall. Her refrigerator was a stone slab in the pantry and there was a black lead fireplace in the kitchen. They look lovely in a museum but aren’t so much fun to clean.

Cheryl has always been a storyteller. As a child, she’d make up stories for her family and they’d explore the imaginary worlds she created in play.

Later in life, Cheryl became the storyteller for a re-enactment group who travelled widely, giving a taste of life in the Iron Age. As well as having an opportunity to run around hitting people with a sword, she had an opportunity to tell stories of all kinds, sometimes of her own making, to all kinds of people. The criticism was sometimes harsh, especially from the children, but the reward enormous.

It was here she began to appreciate the power of stories and the primal need to hear them. In ancient times, the wandering bard was the only source of news, and the storyteller was the heart of the village, keeping the lore and the magic alive. Although much of the magic has been lost, the stories still provide a link to the part of us that still wants to believe that it’s still there, somewhere.

In present times, Cheryl lives in a terraced house in the valleys with her son, dog, bearded dragon and cats. Her daughter has deserted her for the big city, but they’re still close. She’s never been happier since she was made redundant and is able to devote herself entirely to her twin loves of writing and art, with a healthy smattering of magic and mayhem.


A black and white romance

I was a bespectacled historian, spending all my time in libraries and archives where I could hide in my comfortable niche, reluctant to meet the world until I had compelling reasons to. Heidi joked about me sometimes because I smelt of old books, according to her, of a mixture of parched paper, ink and glue. At least I did not use rose petals or lavender tonic or I could be a proper Victorian lady scholar. I also wore monochrome shirts, trousers and coats like a permanent upside-down exclamation mark. #rainbowsnippets

From my forthcoming WLW novella.


Christmas/New Year sale

All my books will be on sale on Smashwords 25 December through 1 January:


The London Stories series:

The Boy Who Fell to Earth – $1.00

Liam For Hire – $2.50

Blue Jay – $2.50

Lesfic YA:

Courting Light – $1.50 (Seasons of Love collection – also 50% off)



Sad socks

Dear happy socks,

I don’t know who put you up to this, the relentless penetration of our psyche that the most pleasant emotional attribute of our daily life comes from the purchase of a pair of footwear accessory. Let me tell you this. You’re the stooge of the great fetishistic tyrant of 21st consumerism, and I refuse to bow to the pressure of the two times two centimetres of your presence on my computer screen where I conduct work to earn my meagre livelihood. Shame on you! Your pseudo-joyful design with a distinct lack of originality fails to elevate our spirit. Instead, the unfortunate souls among us are charmed, as if hypnotised by the dancing snake. They will wake up to a hefty amount on their statements at the end of the month and lament their momentary lapse of judgment. I can predict the future; this pre-Christmas campaign of yours will bring misery to so many over the festive period. They will open their carefully wrapped presents on Christmas Day to discover the gaudy colours of your brand, wondering what they have done all year to deserve such innocuous but careless lack of thought by their loved ones. These otherwise humble but useful garments disguise as cosmopolitan chic, which, once the spell has worn off, will add to the self-loathing of the receivers of such gifts until they are plagued by the memory of the end of 2019 as nothing but sad days. All they will have left are pairs of cheesy socks in their drawers. Until next Christmas.

Yours, with bare feet,